When the pain started to subside is when the bad patterns began. Why is it that I am so comforted by food? I am sick, not feeling well... I eat. They say feed a cold, right? I take every advantage of that. I laid in bed to re cooperate and ate even though I was not even hungry. And I knew I wasn't hungry and I knew what I was doing was wrong but I continued to eat. I guess I could use the excuse that since I was not feeling well it was easier to choose "not so healthy" foods to eat but I have no excuse for eating FOUR Skinny Cow Truffle bars. Those things are SO delicious and it is hard to just stop at one but FOUR is a little ridiculous. Bad, bad patterns.
And I would like to say the next day that I woke up and was back on track. I started out with good intentions. It was my little girls birthday and she asked to go to McDonald's for breakfast so I took her and my little boy and even brought a healthy breakfast with me.
Then we went to Incredible Pizza Buffet with family for dinner. And I did not even try to eat healthier. I skipped the salad section! More bad patterns.
Happy 4th Birthday to my Beautiful Bella
The next day was Mother's Day. I met my mom and sister for brunch, it was an all you can eat brunch and I ate all I could. Look at that pile of bacon! I couldn't resist. Well, I could but I did not want to. More bad patterns.
I did choose SOME healthy options like the spinach omelet and fruit. I think that made our waiter behind me happy.
But then I ate some of theirs as well. More bad patterns.
Today is a new day and I will not let those bad patterns continue. I easily could, I have before... many, many times and I know where that road leads me. I do not want to take that road ever again.
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON MYSELF.