A Weekend Full Of Bad Patterns

Ten years ago I had gastric bypass surgery.  You can read a more detailed account here: Gastric Bypass Surgery: What the Doctors Don't Tell You.  As a result of the surgery, I now have to deal with many health issues.  One of those issues being anemia, since my small intestines are now "bypassed" I can not absorb iron like a normal functioning person.  I have to routinely receive iron transfusions and because I want to diminish my "loss of iron"; last Friday I had an Endometrial Ablation.  Basically, boiling water is put into the uterus to destroy the lining and reduce or stop menstruation.  This was NOT FUN!  The way the doctors talked, it was like no biggie... I could even go to work the next day if I had to.  When I woke up from the surgery, I was only given Tylenol and a heating pad.  Only Tylenol and a heating pad for the WORSE CRAMPS EVER?  I was moaning in pain half the day.  My doctor is going to hear about this when I go for a check-up in two weeks!

When the pain started to subside is when the bad patterns began.  Why is it that I am so comforted by food?  I am sick, not feeling well... I eat.  They say feed a cold, right?  I take every advantage of that.  I laid in bed to re cooperate and ate even though I was not even hungry.  And I knew I wasn't hungry and I knew what I was doing was wrong but I continued to eat.  I guess I could use the excuse that since I was not feeling well it was easier to choose "not so healthy" foods to eat but I have no excuse for eating FOUR Skinny Cow Truffle bars.  Those things are SO delicious and it is hard to just stop at one but FOUR is a little ridiculous.  Bad, bad patterns.

And I would like to say the next day that I woke up and was back on track.  I started out with good intentions.  It was my little girls birthday and she asked to go to McDonald's for breakfast so I took her and my little boy and even brought a healthy breakfast with me. 

Then we went to Incredible Pizza Buffet with family for dinner.  And I did not even try to eat healthier.  I skipped the salad section!  More bad patterns.

Happy 4th Birthday to my Beautiful Bella

The next day was Mother's Day.  I met my mom and sister for brunch, it was an all you can eat brunch and I ate all I could.  Look at that pile of bacon!  I couldn't resist.  Well, I could but I did not want to.  More bad patterns.

I did choose SOME healthy options like the spinach omelet and fruit.  I think that made our waiter behind me happy.

While others chose the big cookie and chocolate mini pie.

But then I ate some of theirs as well.  More bad patterns.

Today is a new day and I will not let those bad patterns continue.  I easily could, I have before... many, many times and I know where that road leads me.  I do not want to take that road ever again.

I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON MYSELF.